I have, over the past week, been asked why I chose to become involved in an argument that did not directly effect me. My only answer to this can be that I have, and always will do what I believe to be the right thing. The moment I found out what had happened to Sadie, Kenny and Matt I knew that all was not as it at first seemed. After speaking to Sadie and reading the so called “evidence” on the BNP site, I came to the conclusion that the expulsions had nothing to do with alleged “treasonous acts” but rather an attempt by the current leadership to cling onto power at all costs.
Now as the YBNP Leader it was my job to look out for the welfare of the YBNP. Granted, I could have sought to stay in Griffin’s good books and keep ‘control’ of the YBNP, but morality is a complicated concept that sometimes forces you to take the position you know to be right, rather than what is personally rewarding.
For me the many issues surrounding these events were not as important as the issue of freedom and democracy within the BNP. The bugging off and raid on Sadie Grahams home, for me, was the determining factor in my decision to speak out against the party leadership. So far I have been sacked as YBNP leader, by none other than John Walker in the most disgusting way imaginable – by text message with the use of the most disgusting language that as a nationalist I wouldn’t dream of using against a fellow patriot. After having been informed that I would receive a disciplinary tribunal, I received a letter from head office informing me of my expulsion without tribunal. As for my feelings towards all of this? I feel betrayed. The way in which the current leadership have treated me, as someone who worked tirelessly to make sure that the YBNP after I leave, would carry on and not fall apart, is disgusting.
In the past people have run the YBNP to inflate their own egos’ All I have ever done is sought to ensure that the structure I put in place would last and that the YBNP would continue regardless of my successors, successes or failures. At the heart of my YBNP was permanence and organisation; not the one man ego trip we have seen with past YBNP leaders. If this is something that the current leadership is willing to destroy in order to maintain their own inflated egos, then quite clearly they couldn’t give a damn about the people who keep them there, or the party itself; just in lining their own pockets and maintaining their own positions of power at all costs.
My decision to back Sadie, Kenny and Matt whilst knowing full well that I would be fired is a decision I stand by. I may have lost a great deal personally over this, but I would do it again without hesitation. He who stands by and allows evil to prevail when he knows he should speak out is a miserable coward, and not worthy of calling himself a patriot. This is a concept I live by, have stood by, and will die by. At least then when I come to the end of my days, I can rest peacefully knowing that I have always done the right thing, not just the rewarding thing.